An Ode to Lights

To all the lights that have are and yet to come your birth is from combustion the polarity of positive or negative or bioluminescence sometimes one sometimes three you exist in the realm of forms in all things when one considers that we are created from an explosion that we and all life are made […]

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Willingness

“Willingness without action is fantasy” – Unknown I always had the willingness to get intoxicated when I started using.  I actively sought out every avenue I could use.  My first job at 15 was essentially just to earn money to use.  My willingness to use superseded rational thinking.  The lack of thinking due to those desires got […]

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The Butterly Lotus

In the depths of darkness a seed had been planted nourished by the crap that comes with a faulty perception this seed’s taproot was a light an atom-sized sun in an infinite abyss of obsidian as the seed’s roots extended it was akin to lightning on a moonless night this network of life support extracted the […]

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Hostile ( A poem on Addiction)

Addiction is Hostility Me to friends and family and me to me my actions razors that make me bleed my soul bled out to infinity hostility within me outwardly expressed poisoning my world as my insides reflect I hated me, I hated you Anger and pain, I pursued when I used I confused who I was […]

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Accepting the faults of others

Accepting the faults of others can be a difficult but much-needed goal, if only for our own inner peace. I recently had an instance where someone in recovery led me to anger and resentment by not understanding my choice. After making a suggesting which I vocalized my opinion about they proceeded to attempt to force […]

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Different not better than

I am better or worse than no one, I am different than.  When I was active in active addiction I fluctuated between extreme self-loathing and overbearing arrogance.  In both states, I perceived that some others were inferior when in reality it was my own thoughts of inferiority finding faults in others to build myself up. […]

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