Healing our past

“No. No. No. That ruins a child” Healing our past can be one of the most difficult and often overlook paths to a peaceful present.  Modern culture has enabled us to either be more willing to suppress our past or to victimize ourselves with it.  Rarely are we shown how to actually heal those broken […]

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Visions

“Neither drug induced or self-induced visions: Pierce all visions to see, to see the void.”   I’m no stranger to altered states whether chemically induced, self-induced or organically induced through mental illness.  I have tread the shifting landscape of my mind many times only to arrive at the same location with different a perspective. When […]

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Free

I used to think I was free, free to act like an asshole, free to take what I wanted, free to do what I wanted, free to say what I wanted.  This was all an illusion.  Every action, every stolen item, every lie, every toxic thought, every harsh judgment, every ill word was another shackle […]

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Willingness

“Willingness without action is fantasy” – Unknown I always had the willingness to get intoxicated when I started using.  I actively sought out every avenue I could use.  My first job at 15 was essentially just to earn money to use.  My willingness to use superseded rational thinking.  The lack of thinking due to those desires got […]

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Disturbing Myself

It is easy in life to fall into the role of the victim, staying in that role becomes an addiction in and of itself.  However, the role of the victim in situations is a luxury we as addicts or alcoholics cannot afford in my experience.  I admit even as I write this, early in the […]

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Compassion

Compassion for others has been something I have learned over time. As I continue my journey towards mental wellness and transforming addiction to true connection a stark reality starts to seep in.  The healthier my mind becomes and the more true connections I form based on love and friendship the more I  expose myself to […]

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