Willingness

“Willingness without action is fantasy” – Unknown I always had the willingness to get intoxicated when I started using.  I actively sought out every avenue I could use.  My first job at 15 was essentially just to earn money to use.  My willingness to use superseded rational thinking.  The lack of thinking due to those desires got […]

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Involution

The insides of me evolving new seeds of life sprouting from the necrotic elements of my former soul I have died many times in this life I have lived many lives in this life Every Cell in my body has been replaced many times I am the paradox of Theseus’ Ship I am both the river […]

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I am the third pillar

A lost one made to wander and wonder who I was thousands of miles traveled To the city of Sin To the Forests of Yore To the Isles of Isolation To back where it began I know this land I feel it’s pulse Erratic, overworked and stressed Innumerable sleepless nights compounded upon one another Drowning […]

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Hostile ( A poem on Addiction)

Addiction is Hostility Me to friends and family and me to me my actions razors that make me bleed my soul bled out to infinity hostility within me outwardly expressed poisoning my world as my insides reflect I hated me, I hated you Anger and pain, I pursued when I used I confused who I was […]

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Self-Obsession

For most of my life, I had an ego-centric view of existence.  In my experience with psychosis, I literally thought I was both the savior of the world at one point, as well as someone who gambled away the milky way galaxy to intergalactic “demons”.  Talk about a burden, let alone self-obsession.  I was the center of […]

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Normal is the mental illness of the masses

You may call me crazy You may think yourself sane society your psych ward society your straight jacket ego your medication collectivism your support group mental illness is so common recovery is rare every day yours is progressing every day it continues to spread a newborn’s mind is a canvas we paint with our own […]

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